Guess what? A strong feeling inside there. I counldn’t figure out how it was formed.
Tired. After years I had been struggling for a direction of life and at the end, i’m jobless now. I choice to be jobless. Perhaps I need a refreshment, a trip to Gunung Kota Kinabalu can make me different. I really hope there is a day that I can step on the Gunung Kota Kinabalu. The view at the peak must be amazing.
This is business world. You can’t make a life without money. The reality is always cruel in the sense that money creates the society, nation and world. ‘You have to be decisive’, Steven said. ‘This is the business world’, ’simple need, simple decision; complex need, complex decision’, ‘you must be stucked for sometime’, he added.
4 years back, I still was a student, an ordinary student who busy with school assignment and examination. Completing the course of bachelor is the hope of most of the parent, so do my parent. After KTAR, UTAR comes in. By now, I agree with the action of traveling after completed the course. A long travel which will leading you to the new ‘you’.
Yes, I love learning and I think I already addicted to learning. What is the purpose of learning anyway? Oh… I just realized that I cannot answer this question. ‘Learning is to improve oneself’ , perhaps this is a good one. Then, how about ‘What is the fundamental purpose of improvement?’, perhaps ‘For the basic need to survive!’ hits the red spot. The capability of survive does make you different from the surrounding.
Perfection. Yes, I admit that I’m a perfectionist. What’s wrong with perfection? Nothing’s wrong, but ‘you just confine youself into a shell’, Steven said again. Perfection brings a lot of troubleness. I had seen myself doing those nonimportant that just make someting better in minor area. A lot time was spent. Are those actions worth my time? To be frank, I don’t know.
‘Are you doing this to add value to yourself or your customer?’, question from Steven came into my mind suddenly. This is the question I not really know how to answer him. ‘Are you try to make money or doing charity, that’s the only 2 things here’, he caught me again.
Steven knows a lot of my thought, he is an experienced software engineer and also a man with lot of life experience. That’s what I can say.
‘It is definitely tough and hard time before you can success’, John said. Am I afraid of failure? Or I just want to choose the right one?
Am I stupid or something? I really don’t know. Perhaps time can tell. Am I educated in such way that follows heart’s wish?
Alone in the street.
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“All works and no play make jack a dull boy”. You do need a blue sky holiday to refresh your mind and take some time off from your busy schedule.
Maybe after traveling, you might see things in different perspective. Make your decision after that, and you’ll see the differene.
All the best ! =)
Perhaps you’re right. You’re a slave?
This is reality’s world..no people can change or modify it. it same like our program that run in production server. Need to testing before launch it. Perhaps you need to learn how to accept it. even i still cannot accept.
What a freak programmer! But I agree…trial and error.
Reality is what you perceive. Change your perception in Life, you’ll change the yourself within.